Shadows in the Water

. . . . That's the title I wanted to name my whole blog, It's stolen from a book I read when I was 11, about children who could talk to dolphins. The coast off Durban, South Africa, where I'll be starting my medical internship in nineteen days, is called the Dolphin Coast, so the title seemed appropriate. However, I had a desire to define aperture and explain my reasoning behind the long URL that nobody will be able to remember. Although, in the same way that cell phone address books have made memorizing phone numbers obsolete, I guess you can all just bookmark the page and not have to remember what the URL is. After critique and review with a trusted friend, I made some adjustments. However, I can't promise that my thoughts will always be fluid.

Welcome Dear and Gentle Browsers,
(I STOLE that from Luke, who borrowed it from Jane Austen.) This is the future site of my blog for my medical internship with CFHI in Durban, South Africa. Nineteen days left until I leave. Before that, I will leave Eugene (my college town), leave California (the state where I grew up), and leave Virginia (where my brother is getting married). I guess that's a lot of leaving to do in such a short period of time. One of the things that scares me about writing this blog is that I fear my emotional honesty when trying to express my words will expose more of who I am than I sometimes think it's ok to share. I am letting myself become open to the archival of my words in the manner that those I respect choose to do. At the same time I hold onto the comfort in unspoken words.


Sometimes I prefer to use song lyrics to convey a feeling. The Scientist was originally written and performed by Johnette Napolitano & Danny Lohner, and later covered by Coldplay in 2002. This is the song playing in my head, in the wake of change and finding something I didn't know I was looking for.

Come up to meet you, tell you Im sorry
You dont know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said that it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh its such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
Im going back to the start